Just end it, it’s better that way. Split then the fights will stop, you will own your own and there won’t be anymore ridiculous fights AGAIN AND AGAIN.

Hate it when people turn Christianity into a religion. Where you have todo this and that etc. I mean obviously for your relationship with God you have to obey him and not do anything that goes against his will. But for the fact of objects and having to do this for protection etc. That just turns it into a religion. Christianity isn’t a religion, it’s a relationship, it’s a choice, it’s the better way of life and trust in the creator of the world. We don’t have to do all these things, because it’s a relationship between us and God. Of course we tell people about it, about how awesome our God is. But the problem is that when you start making it into a religion, for examples having to use the cross as protection. That just makes it into utter bull, because once you have God and his word what else do you need? Nothing, because he is God. In my opinion we don’t need to do this and that, like place this here and etc. Because our purpose in knowing him and having a relationship with him is what is important. All the rest isn’t needed. We don’t have to use the cross to show “oh, we’re Christian.” It’s like you’re trying to say you’re better than everyone else because you’re a Christian. Okay I go for not watching horror movies and witchcraft etc, that make sense to me. But having to use the cross to show off that I’m a Christian. I’m absolutely not for that. Not. At. All.

People that gamble are so fucking stupid. I mean seriously, you would think that after not just once, but a few times of losing fortunes. That they would realise that it’s a stupid black hole you get sucked into. Don’t keep it a habit unless you want to die stupid and in a pit full if your idiocy.

I feel so restricted by my mother. It is like I can’t live my own life and make my own mistakes. I have to follow what she tells me to do and shit. Seriously I can’t stand it anymore, I feel like I can’t be alive on my own. I want to be independent, but if she keeps making my own decisions… Then heck how am I supposed to be independent. I know I’m the youngest and she does care and worry about me. She doesn’t want me to make the same mistakes as my siblings. I respect that, but I feel like if I end up making the wrong decisions she’ll kick me out of the house. The hard thing is that she is a staunch Christian. HARDCORE. I am a Christian too but she just. URGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! Can’t stand it my gash! The things she does sometimes drives me crazy, but I can’t even complain coz far out. She is my mum. I want her to under stand that I need to live my own life, and do my own things. I don’t want to be forced to do things, and end up having an unwilling heart. Sometimes I hate being the youngest, because we never have a voice in the family. Urgh rant over.

That awkward moment when you’re at a beach, and you spot a female reading Fifty Shades of Gray while tanning/chilling. True pleasure reading.

I’m starting to hate who I’ve become. Actually i’ve hated her since ages ago, but it never really hit me. I seriously hate what i’ve turned into, and it’s really bugging me. The stupid thing is, that it’s most probably my fault for changing this way. I went from wanting to be the better, to becoming the worst. I don’t even know who I was, or who I genuinely am anymore.

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I feel numb without you here. I feel empty. No one’s presence can fill this emptiness that I am feeling. I don’t feel close to anyone since you left. I can hardly talk to you, and it feels like whenever I do.. you aren’t there. I know i’m selfish as shit. But. I miss you. SO MUCH! I seriously can’t stand it anymore. It’s like nothing matters to me without you with me. I feel so numb. So abandoned. So left out. I don’t even know now. Mainly with everyone so loving around me… it’s hard. The sad part is, that I don’t think we can ever be the same again. It’s either for the better or for the worse, but one thing for sure. I miss you.  

(Source: saymiew)

I miss you…

IN DEEP SHIPS.

I find it hard to communicate with new people. The only way or reason for me to talk to new people, is by my friends. Other than that I’m the most awkward person one will know. I suck at carrying on conversations and keeping new friends. I’m the type that has a hard time with adapting to situations. Therefore I might not look like an introvert from the outside, but if you meet me when I’m by myself… It’s a different person and a different story.

It sucks when things always get cancelled… It’s happened so many times, the way that I get left hanging. I know it’s not quite fair, since it was cancelled because of a reason. But still… Why am I the one that gets disappointed most of the time. Please stop leaving me hanging, makes me feel like shit

Consistent with their feelings, their relationships, their promises, their thoughts and with their tasks. Why?

I know I have to deal with it, but I seriously hate it when you ignore me and stuff. Make me realise how much you actually mean to me. It sucks. I hate it when you get mad at me, never fails to make me feel like total shit. Sigh. Why do I care and depend on you so much? It frustrates me. 

(Source: saymiew)

My friend left her phone at a place we left. We figured out that she lost it once we were on our way home. She got so stressed out and I prayed to God. Finally we got her boyfriend to go and get it. Guess What? The security guard found it and my friend didn’t lose her phone! Praise God and prayer always works ^.^